You Know Better than I

We went in to see Elizabeth and help with her care and found out that they have temporarily stopped milk feeding because she spit up a little this morning. She is still on the TPN so she is getting nourishment either way. They will let her rest for the day and then look at her tomorrow.

If she doesn't keep spitting up then they will most likely start the milk again. They said she looks great otherwise. We got some much needed skin to skin time with her and I went to the pump room to well, pump. I thought of how I had felt sad when she had been put back in an incubator because it felt like a set back. 

I realized I could let myself sink into depression over one spit up, which was possible considering I had gone through a couple of bouts of post partum. Or, I could pray and give it all to God who knows better than I. I know she is where she needs to be getting the best care, God is good, and He has brought her here now for a reason. 

Prayers are of course still welcome of course. I take comfort in that and the beautiful blessings she has received from her Heavenly and Earthly father. 

I thought I did what's right

I thought I had the answers

I thought I chose the surest road

But that road brought me here

So I put up a fight

And told You how to help me

And just when I have given up

The truth is coming clear 

You know better than I

You know the way

I've let go the need to know why

For you know better than I 

If this has been a test

I cannot see the reason 

But maybe knowing I don't know 

Is part of getting through 

I try to do what's best

And faith has made it easy

To see the best thing I can do

Is put my trust in You

For You know better than I 

You know the way

I've let go the need to know why

For You know better than I 

I saw one cloud and thought it was the sky

I saw a bird and thought that I could follow 

But it was You who taught that bird to fly

If I let You reach me

Will You teach me?

For You know better than I 

You know the way 

I've let go the need to know why 

I'll take what answers You supply 

You know better than I 

-Joseph: King of Dreams